March 11, 2015 - Another Roller Coaster Ride

Tonight has been a long night - I am thinking steroids have contributed, but tonight has turned into tomorrow and I haven't been asleep yet! It's fitting, I guess; before I started chemo, I felt that I was riding a roller coaster of emotions, and the roller coaster showed up again tonight, as we prepare for the last day of chemo.

It has been up and down. A great day on Tuesday, followed by an emotionally packed night. I am so tired, but my brain will not turn off. I know what to expect of chemo infusion, but I don't know what we will hear when we sit down with the doctor. Will we leave with the prescription for the new cancer fighting med? Will we have the appointment set for the first PET scan after chemo? I am excited to be finished, but we have no idea what life after chemo really looks like. Feelings are running rampant, up and down - and I DO know that I will look rough for my "last day of chemo" picture if I don't get some sleep!!  smile emoticon

I have said before that this battle is as much (if not more) spiritual and emotiobal as it is physical. Late tonight/this morning, I decided it was time to call on some of our many friends who have prayed for us. I sent some quick emails asking specifically for a peaceful time at chemo, and a recovery that brings honor to God. I know that He hears those prayers!! 

It's once again time to choose truth over facts:

1). God is not surprised by the things that happen in our lives, and He can use them for His Glory If we let Him.
2). God has an incredible plan for our lives, and we can trust His plan.
3). Joy is more powerful than fear - and we need to CHOOSE JOY!!

Thankful for these words today!!

You hear me when I call, You are my morning song
Though darkness fills the night, It cannot hide the light
Whom shall I fear?

You crush the enemy, Underneath my feet
You are my sword and shield, Though trouble lingers still
Whom shall I fear?

I know who goes before me, I know who stands behind
The God of angel armies is always by my side
The One who reigns forever, He is a friend of mine
The God of angel armies is always by my side

And nothing formed against me shall stand
You hold the whole world in Your hands
I'm holding on to Your promises
You are faithful, You are faithful

"In his kindness, God called you to share in His eternal glory by means of Christ Jesus. So after you have suffered a little while, He will restore, support, and strengthen you, and He will place you on a firm foundation. All power to Him forever! Amen." (1 Peter 5:10-11 NLT). Thank you, Brook Hale, for sharing this verse with me!!

Thanks for taking this journey with us, and for your prayers today and this week!