December 14, 2017

Early Morning Musings

Four hours until eye injection #14. I really want to be that cheerful “no big deal” kind of person when it comes to this - and I know that I have a wonderful life and I am so blessed!! But eye injections are very low on the list of ways I’d like to spend my morning. And I wish I knew how the story ends - how many more injections? Will my eye stabilize soon? Will cancer come back? Will the cognitive problems improve? One thought leads to the next. 

I’m getting better at eye injections. And at not knowing the unknown. I know that I can’t control my eyes - or cancer cells or memory issues, for that matter. Even so, I still do NOT like surprises and want to know how it all turns out. 😁

But here’s a benefit of eye injection days. I usually wake up early that day and read - starting with my devotion time. 

I have been reading a lot of Christmas devos this year and thinking about Mary, the mother of Jesus. That girl was so tough!! The idea of traveling a long distance when you are about to give birth - and then to not have a place to stay??? I would have been extremely unpleasant!! 

But she let God be God, even though she didn’t understand all the details or reasons for her situation. I can learn a lot from Mary!! Here is a part of my devo this morning:

“Why did God allow me to be placed in a role that was beyond my capability? This was the first of many ‘bigger than me’ assignments. I quickly learned that God wasn’t really concerned with my capabilities. All He required was a willing vessel. His glory was best displayed in impossible situations...: This Christmas, rather than worry about circumstances that are out of our control, we can choose to trust that God is working in unexpected ways.” - Lili Dunbar

We can trust God. Even when we don’t understand. Even (and especially) when we don’t know how it all turns out. Just need to keep repeating that. 😁

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. - Jeremiah 29:11 NIV