April 19, 2018

God’s timing is mind-blowing. In our THRIVE study last night, we talked about how God uses His Word to speak to us in different ways at different times. 

After planning on a week of no doctor appointments, I have had two, with more scheduled for testing to determine what’s up with my balance. Apparently this balance/falling down issue isn’t going to be a quick fix. And while they are sorting it out, I asked “If you were me, would you drive right now?” The reply was probably not. I already haven’t been driving at night but I “tried out” not driving yesterday - and it is hard to rely on other people!! I love my sweet friends who are willing to help but I do not like being dependent. I did not feel very joyful - and I just happened to be wearing my “Choose Joy” shirt as I was crying at the doctor’s office and at THRIVE. 😂😁😥😭😁

This was my devo this morning: 

“Two are better than one, Because they have a good reward for their labor. For if they fall, one will lift up his companion. But woe to him who is alone when he falls, For he has no one to help him up.” Ecclesiastes‬ ‭4:9-10‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

It continues on: “I was raised to be independent, and just like toddlers, I wanted to do things “by myself.” I was diagnosed with cancer a few years ago, and I determined to be the strong one. I didn’t want my family or friends to worry, so I did not show my fear. I let people know that I could handle the trips to get treatments on my own; I didn’t need anyone to go with me. But too soon, I started to crumble. I really thought I could handle this by myself. I was wrong. Yes, I prayed. Yes, I spoke the truth of God’s Word. But I needed something else. I needed the support of other people in order to find my brave.” Holly Wagner, Find Your Brave

I’ve read the verse so many times - but never thought about it in the literal context of falling. The devo goes on to talk about how we don’t need to be alone and the importance of relationship and community. Things I KNOW but apparently needed to be reminded of this week!!

God knows where we are and what we are dealing with. Even when we are mad or sad or discouraged. He is putting people in our lives to walk with, sometimes so we can bless them - and sometimes so they can be a blessing to us. 

Thank you, God, for the reminders in the difficult seasons!! 😁