🙂 Pre-treatment, losing hair, no hair, first eye surgery, and where we are today - it's all been a part of this journey. And my boyfriend is so cute!!
I never planned to be the person who writes "deep thoughts" on Facebook on a regular basis. And I wouldn't want anyone to think that I am posting for sympathy or because I'm feeling sorry for myself. Well, in my last long post, I was feeling a little sorry for myself. I blame it on the earache. 🙂 But as I continue this path, I am amazed at how God takes my confusion or sorrow or pain and uses it to teach me more about Himself - and that is good news worth sharing!
🙂 But as I continue this path, I am amazed at how God takes my confusion or sorrow or pain and uses it to teach me more about Himself - and that is good news worth sharing!
When I learned that I had cancer, I wasn't afraid - except for the losing-my-hair part!! I planned to have treatment and return to my regularly-scheduled life. We tend to feel like we can handle what we understand. But unexpected issues - declining vision and cognitive problems - they were not part of my plan and I have absolutely struggled to find "normal" - or to think that this IS the new normal.
I have dealt this year with some worry and fear - not knowing the outcome, how this part of the story ends. But as time goes by, even though life looks different than it did three years ago, there are so many blessings in this season. Here are just a few - maybe you can relate!
* I have felt the comfort and assurance that God is with me, and nothing can change that. I see that I couldn't really experience that comfort fully until I NEEDED an antidote to fear.
* I am thankful for things I once took for granted - like a bedroom with beautiful windows to look out from as I recover from today's eye injection - and I am absolutely thankful for Kroger Click List!!
* I am less self-reliant than in the "old" days. There wasn't much I couldn't figure out, and I didn't need a lot of help or input. But I have learned that I am stronger as I lean into the people around me.
I definitely don't have it all figured out - and I tend to have to learn and re-learn lessons! But as I mark three years, I am so thankful for what God is clearly showing me, even on the days when my thoughts and vision may be clouded. 🙂
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This was part of my devo today, and it is so fitting:
"The enemy loves to interrupt our hopes with fear, anxiety, and disappointment. But our Father God wants us to know His gift of overwhelming peace. Because of Jesus’ victory, we can be victorious (even in the wilderness times) and exchange our fear for His peace.... Today, pause and consider how the enemy would like to keep you gripped in fear, yet the Father wants you to exchange this for His peace." Helen Roberts, Victory in the Wilderness
“Don’t fret or worry. Instead of worrying, pray. Let petitions and praises shape your worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns. Before you know it, a sense of God’s wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down. It’s wonderful what happens when Christ displaces worry at the center of your life.” Philippians 4:6-7 MSG
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