It's been almost a year since I went in to have a routine eye visit, was referred to a specialist, and ended up having my first eye injection. I had another eye injection today and after a year of doing this, I can say that it doesn't get easier. Shots in my eye are the least favorite medical procedure I've ever experienced - about as much fun as they sound. That's saying a lot, considering the last few years! Seriously. With injections, you go in "eyes wide open" - no laughing gas or anesthesia.
And there is no end in sight. My doctor said today that there is fluid behind my retina and that it's not stable.
There are much bigger things happening around me - hurricanes, fires, tragic family situations - so this may not even blip the radar in comparison. But it isn't easy - it is a challenge at times to choose joy!
That's when music is such a great blessing. "You're never going to let me down, You are good." "When you don't part the waters I needed you to move, when you don't give the answers as I cry out to you, I will trust in you."
It is my choice - I can google details about my eye condition and try to figure out how many people who took my type of chemo ended up with vision problems. I can try to determine stats on how many people with this diagnosis go blind. Or I can listen to words that comfort me, and read scripture that promises that God will never leave me or forsake me. I can try to take this situation into my own hands or I can rest in the knowledge that God is watching over me.
No matter what we are dealing with, and when everything may seem out of control - we can rely on the Cornerstone!
“From the ends of the earth I call to you, I call as my heart grows faint; lead me to the rock that is higher than I. For you have been my refuge, a strong tower against the foe." Psalm 61:2-3 NIV
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