Crazy weekend update!
I am getting ready to fly to Montana to see my dad and step-mom. My dad has had lots of health issues and I haven't been able to visit as often as I used to before cancer, so I have been looking forward leaving tomorrow!!
On Saturday night, I noticed the eye that had macular hole "face down" surgery (not the injection eye) was blurrier than normal. On Sunday morning, my vision had moved from blurry to distorted. A quick trip to the eye specialist this morning showed a vision change from 20/70 last week to 20/200 this week and some new edema in the macula. It could calm down or it could develop a hole. Just waiting to see and in the meantime, it's stable enough to fly to Montana. Yay!!
When I first started having vision problems in 2015, the idea of "waiting to see" made me crazy. I wanted an answer, for things to be resolved. To know how it was going to end. I wanted to stop, fix things, and move on. But eyes aren't like that and life isn't either. Sometimes "wait and see" IS the answer.
I am an extremely slow learner when it comes to these lessons!! But I am getting better at understanding that whatever we are dealing with, no matter the challenge, the best thing to do is to keep moving forward, to keep trusting that God is using ALL THINGS for good. That is a good lesson to learn. It helps us feel peace and joy in the small things, even if we can't see the big picture all the time.
"If God has entrusted you with a [time] of suffering, let Him teach you how to live within it so that His holy purpose and His life-giving fruit may be fully accomplished through you!" - Margaret Clarkson, "Grace Grows Best in Winter"
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