I was just reading back through this post and all the feedback from friends. Thank you for your transparency and honesty, and for the prayers for me. I (obviously!) had a rough day last Monday, right in the middle of one of the happiest days of our lives - Baby Graham's birthday! It's incredible how we can have so many competing thoughts and emotions going through our minds at the same time. Feelings and emotions are wonderful and painful and unreliable.
But before I beat myself up too much about roller coaster feelings, I remember all of the people in the Bible that God used and loved, and they had some pretty up and down experiences. Moses led the children of Isreal out of Egypt, but he was an unwilling leader and at one point, asked if God might just want to kill him because he was so tired of listening to the people around him complaining. And David!! Just look at Psalms and you see some serious yo-yo emotions. Writing songs of praise one minute, asking God to put him out of his misery the next! But David isn't labeled by God as an emotional basket case; God called David a man after His own heart!
In some ways, I look back at my "roller coaster" post and think "Yikes! Possibly shared a little too much information there!" But the post ultimately wasn't about me - it is about how God is using this journey to teach me so much more about Him, about His heart. If I can share it with my friends, if we can all learn a little more about focusing on Him instead of listening to all the noise around us, and being overwhelmed by feelings and emotions and busy-ness all around us, this journey is not going to be wasted.
Yet I still dare to hope when I remember this: The faithful love of the LORD never ends! His mercies never cease. Great is his faithfulness; his mercies begin afresh each morning. I say to myself, “The LORD is my inheritance; therefore, I will hope in him!” The LORD is good to those who depend on him, to those who search for him. (Lamentations 3:21-25 NLT)
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