April 14, 2015 - Waiting

Still no set date for surgery. It may be Friday but it may not be. Not knowing is frustrating to me. I want to get this over with. I am a planner and I can't plan. I want to get past where I am. And while we are talking about waiting - I WOULD REALLY LIKE MY HAIR TO GROW BACK FASTER, and it is not paying any attention to what I want!!! 

God is teaching me something in this waiting. To be thankful rather than tense. To be grateful for a day when I felt great, when I got to see four of my grandkids and to hold sweet baby Graham - he is growing up too quickly!  smile emoticon

I don't want to waste any more todays in worrying about the next day. I seem to need to learn this lesson over and over again. We can all be guilty of that - it's so easy to do! But my goal for tomorrow is to be in THE moment, to see what God has planned for THIS day, and to CHOOSE JOY over everything else. And I am pretty sure that I can't learn this lesson unless I have to wait. smile emoticon

“Humbly let go. Let go of trying to do, let go of trying to control, let go of my own way, let go of my own fears. Let God blow His wind, His trials, oxygen for joy's fire. Leave the hand open and be. Be at peace. Bend the knee and be small and let God give what God chooses to give... This is the fuel for joy's flame. Fullness of joy is discovered only in the emptying of will." - Ann Voskamp