I have heard people say that the transition from cancer treatment to regular life can be a challenge. After living in "fight" mode for the last several months, I want to get back to my regular self. However, I tend to expect a lot, and think I should be back to pre-cancer weight, hair, etc.
SURPRISE! None of that has happened yet! My eyes are watering constantly, my vision hasn't improved, and I am tired. Today my eyes are also swollen, my clothes are too tight, my wig feels funny, and I don't really recognize myself, to be honest. I go back to the doctor on Wednesday to get details on my follow-up treatment, which will be a daily pill. I wonder if the thought will ever go away in the back of my mind... "It's not really over. It will be back."
The above quote from Beth Moore sums up a game plan quite well - funny how feelings are involved! smile emoticon Feelings definitely seem to be a theme in my life, and it can be a challenge to believe what God says over what I feel.
When I wrote the prayer below the other day, I didn't realize how much I would need it - but I do. I didn't realize how much I would need our lifeGROUP as we prepare to study how to "Fight Back with JOY" - but I do. I am going to fight through this, and focus on what I have rather than what it FEELS I have lost.
So for today, I am thankful for taste buds that are working again! And I am thankful for a clean bill of health - one that says "curative" rather than "palliative!" There is always something for us to be thankful about!!
“God, you are the author of my life, you have planned each of my days, and I am giving YOU control. I am choosing JOY for this day, and I am trusting you to order my steps. Amen.”
"But let the godly rejoice. Let them be glad in God’s presence. Let them be filled with joy." (Psalms 68:3 NLT)
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