April 3, 2019 - Cancer

I read a post recently; it compares cancer to walking around with a gun to the back of your head. You can’t control it, you try to live like everything is “normal” but at any moment, the gun could go off.

That seems to fit a lot of situations we face in life. A child with a serious health issue. A marriage with an unresolved conflict. A financial issue that is about to explode. A secret that is hidden but will be revealed in time. All those things feel like a gun to the back of our heads, a ticking time bomb waiting to go off.

This journey is a marathon - and I am a sprinter, not a marathoner. Almost nine months into the cancer marathon, I’m a little tired. I don’t know how this story will resolve - if I will be miraculously healed here on earth, if the dizziness I’m dealing with is just a side effect of my chemo pill or if it’s something more sinister, if I will be able to continue to handle this journey well or if I will start to fall. And Tony has to listen to lots of ups and downs with me! He is one tough guy - and I am so thankful for him!

I was at our church’s “First Wednesday” service tonight; my dizziness got the best of me and I needed to come home, but I listened to the service online and it was the Word I needed for this day.

Our pastor and friend, Patrick, spoke about worship. It’s so easy to lose focus when we are struggling with a life-altering situation. But when we do focus on Him and give our worship to Him, all of the worries and doubts fade away. And then my friend Treasa led the congregation in communion and had an awesome word about giving our worship to God.

Guns at the back of our head are nothing to fear! Our Creator has given us the tools to conquer every situation. He numbers our days, no one else!! But we HAVE to focus on Him, and give our worship to Him. When we do, the problems of this world truly do fade away.

“And as You speak, a hundred billion failures disappear

Where You lost Your life so I could find it here

If You left the grave behind You so will I

I can see Your heart in everything You’ve done

Every part designed in a work of art called love

If You gladly chose surrender so will I.”

“I bow before your holy Temple as I worship. I praise your name for your unfailing love and faithfulness; for your promises are backed by all the honor of your name.” Psalms‬ ‭138:2‬ ‭NLT‬‬