August 21, 2018

I’m continuing to read the book by Laura Story that I referenced yesterday:

MYTH: The plan I have for my life is much better than the place where God has me right now. 

TRUTH: Where God has me right now is the best place for me. 

Wow! Given my current situation, this is a lot to take in. It’s easy to be okay with where I am, and to believe that God isn’t surprised by my situation - but sometimes it’s hard to keep in mind that this is God’s PLAN. 

I learned this lesson before, after eye surgery. I had struggled with waiting - for surgery, chemo, all that stuff to be over so I could get back to my “regularly scheduled life”. Instead, I found myself face down for 12 days as I recovered from macular hole surgery. But then I heard God say “this IS my plan, this IS my will for your life,” and it was a huge comfort to me. And again, right before I found out that cancer was back, I heard God telling me, “this isn’t over and it’s not a punishment; I can trust you to deliver the message that I want to have delivered.” One day, we know and we are secure in the knowledge that God is in control and has a plan - but it is so easy to forget in the middle of all the details and surprises that a journey like this brings. 

Reading the myth versus truth was a much-needed reminder. Even though cancer has taken me on a much different path than I anticipated, it is a good path. I have already met some amazing people, I am enjoying time to slow down and reflect, and I am excited to see what the future looks like.